Have you ever been so focused on learning something new that you long for something familiar that you're already good at? I've been thinking about that a lot lately. Although I'm getting better at this craft of nursing, I'm still insecure most of the time and constantly striving to keep up with my peers (I can officially take on 5 patients all by myself now, by the way). Even in my free time, the hobby I've chosen to pick up is teaching myself to play guitar. I've barely started and I know this is something that take LOTS of time and practice, but again, it's discouraging at times and much more easily said than done.
It's time to do something I'm already good at. Something confidence-boosting that comes naturally. Like singing. This is something that has always been a part of me that I've done my whole life with ease. For the first time, I don't have an outlet for it besides busting out to iTunes in the car. I miss making music with others in choir or with the worship team at church. Learning the guitar should help, but I've got a loooong way to go before I can do both at once!
Something else I'm good at: working with kids. After 5 years as a daycare teacher and a lifetime of loving on little ones, taking care of this population is really where my heart is. Especially infants. I'm a pro. Adults are really challenging. And not nearly as cute. It's good for me to work out of my comfort zone, but my spirit needs lifting. I need to surround myself with children.
Now I'm trying to think of other things I'm good at that I can do in my spare time. My cooking is subpar. I've thought about starting something like yoga, but let's face it. No way will that come naturally to me. Writing like this is fun. This I can keep doing (although I haven't been very consistent). The fact is that I didn't have many hobbies to begin with, so just about anything will be new and challenging.
I really don't know the purpose of this rambling. The only way it will make a difference is to actually do something about it. It's good for me to brainstorm and process these ideas, but I have to take action if I really want my situation to change. I should clarify that I don't regret moving here in anyway, and I could ramble on even more about all of the blessings that God has surrounded me with. I just want to revisit my roots.
Speaking of my roots, my trip home next week will be extremely refreshing and soul-satisfying! Part of me feels like a wimp since I couldn't make it more than 3 months without going home, but then the better part of me is SO EXCITED and recognizes that my family members are bigger wimps than I am. ;) I'm not gonna lie, I miss my 20-month-old niece Brynley more than anyone, and I can't wait to be Aunt Cacky again! Now THERE'S something I'm good at :)
It's time to do something I'm already good at. Something confidence-boosting that comes naturally. Like singing. This is something that has always been a part of me that I've done my whole life with ease. For the first time, I don't have an outlet for it besides busting out to iTunes in the car. I miss making music with others in choir or with the worship team at church. Learning the guitar should help, but I've got a loooong way to go before I can do both at once!
Something else I'm good at: working with kids. After 5 years as a daycare teacher and a lifetime of loving on little ones, taking care of this population is really where my heart is. Especially infants. I'm a pro. Adults are really challenging. And not nearly as cute. It's good for me to work out of my comfort zone, but my spirit needs lifting. I need to surround myself with children.
Now I'm trying to think of other things I'm good at that I can do in my spare time. My cooking is subpar. I've thought about starting something like yoga, but let's face it. No way will that come naturally to me. Writing like this is fun. This I can keep doing (although I haven't been very consistent). The fact is that I didn't have many hobbies to begin with, so just about anything will be new and challenging.
I really don't know the purpose of this rambling. The only way it will make a difference is to actually do something about it. It's good for me to brainstorm and process these ideas, but I have to take action if I really want my situation to change. I should clarify that I don't regret moving here in anyway, and I could ramble on even more about all of the blessings that God has surrounded me with. I just want to revisit my roots.
Speaking of my roots, my trip home next week will be extremely refreshing and soul-satisfying! Part of me feels like a wimp since I couldn't make it more than 3 months without going home, but then the better part of me is SO EXCITED and recognizes that my family members are bigger wimps than I am. ;) I'm not gonna lie, I miss my 20-month-old niece Brynley more than anyone, and I can't wait to be Aunt Cacky again! Now THERE'S something I'm good at :)
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